Hank and Anabelle were born stillborn on August 24th 2014
Losing them was the worst thing I could have ever imagined. It's like no pain I have ever experienced.
My pregnancy was going great until around week 20 my cervix opened
I had a bulging bag.
We opted to perfect a risky surgery to try to get the bag back in
and then have a cerclage. It went perfectly but my contractions didn't stop.
I was in the hospital for 10 days trying everything possible to get the contractions to stop. Throughout the whole process it never crossed by mind that the babies wouldn't make it.
I just thought I would stay in the hospital for the rest of my pregnancy.
At 23 weeks my water broke and I delivered both my angels.
Even just writing this now is like a knife in my heart.
When we found out we were pregnant with twins again I was terrified.
I could not go through that again.
We took lots of precautions.
I was worried sick the whole pregnancy.
Constantly worrying about the worst case scenario
because when it happens to you once you think everything will.
My pregnancy went perfectly. No bed rest, no complications until around week 34.
I Developed pre-eclampsia and ended up delivering the babies to make sure that nothing happened to me.
The girls spent 18 days in the NICU.
That was a really tough time too, but now thy are home at 3 months old and doing great. Sometimes I still can't believe they are here and mine.
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