Today - i remember you,
A year ago - my world was over
Today - its just beginning
A year ago - i was a nanny
Today - I'm a mommy
A year ago - my heart was shattered
Today - my heart is whole.
A year ago - i felt more alone than ever before.
Today - i feel surrounded by peace & love.
A year ago - i went into the dark
Today - i feel you in the light of sunrise
A year ago - i felt hopeless
Today - I feel hope.
365 days have passed since i lost you. Every single one of those days i've thought of you. I've remembered you. I've longed for you. You will forever be my first,
You made me a Mama, regardless of you being in heaven.
That night after you were gone, i saw you.
dancing, twirling, laughing.
in vast and beautiful field of wildflowers, so many colors & flowers some i'd never even seen before. in your perfect light pink sundress, there you were, clear as day, freckles sprinkled across your nose. & cheeks rosy from play.
You are beautiful my darling. So beautiful.
A year ago - i'd lost my everything.
Today - i have your baby brother who is my everything
(along with your daddy of course)
He's more perfect than i could have imagined.
i cherish every snuggle, and savor every cry.
i know that he is our third chance and i'll always be thankful.
So so thankful.
but, no matter what,
i'll never ever forget you
Love Always, Mama